Admiration and resentment it causes equally and for the same reasons. She became a victim of domestic violence and wrote a book about it. Now happily married and is not afraid to shout about it, not to be suspected of insincerity. Meeting with Valeria, which continues to build a life on a personal script.
In recent years, it changes in appearance, though losing a reality and more and more resembling a kind of ideal fabulous creature: white hair, blue eyes, chiseled figure... the fairy of eternal youth smiles at me all the skins. What language we communicate? Passing through the security cordons around and inside her house, I imagine a Palace hall and maids in starched aprons... But the first thing I see getting in the apartment, two pairs of children's shoes at the wall in the hallway. And then the hostess trousers: "Come, I'll make us tea". Living room is spacious, but not lock. Simple furniture, a couple of pictures... This laconic like says: living here are not to sybaritical. Emotional, talkative and quite earthy woman with three children, Valeria manages its life not from the heights of billboards. Hard schedule of classes, tours, children's schedule - she's clearly under the control. Unlike the ten years previous marriage with producer Alexander Shulgin, which is described in detail in his book "life, tears and love" (ABC, 2006). Was an aspiring jazz singer Alla perfilova changed the name, to give life to the future of pop celebrities. But it turned out changed their destiny. She knew that her path to glory will go through humiliation, fear and lack of freedom.
Today Valery confidently says that she's all right: she was able to overcome the situation became even more brighter. But the criticism and dissatisfaction not allow her to relax. It seems, diligent and mandatory Alla perfilova still lives in Valeria and not for one second disclaims responsibility for its success.
- You like your popularity?
- I don't particularly glad of it, do not think on this subject.
But when your own face looking at you from posters size 3 6 m2, what do you feel?
- Anything. No, probably, and it is pleasant. But can't say that I revel in it. Maybe because at that moment, when I could ill star disease, I was very cool zaselyali in his personal life. Within the family had so many problems that I didn't care that there are printing show... And this attitude has involuntarily transferred to a prosperous life. I am a very critical attitude, and, if you get a good shot, I look at it as an object of photography. I can't believe that it's me.
In ten years you first came on to the scene of the district House of culture...
Then I had my first special condition - it only happens on stage. As if I am in a particular dimension, as in through the looking glass, and what was happening to me, I don't know. I'm... not quite adequate at this point - I'm different on stage, something else... can't even explain what the. I loved to sing, and I knew that I would be an artist, will perform on the big stage. Only ignorance can be so confident. When at the age of 17 I came to do the Gnesin Institute, I'm not worried! And only closer to the second course I had the feeling of stage fright. I thought: God, as I am far from perfect... I have more soberly looked at myself and more adequately compare themselves with other. And with that fear, that will not perform well, I had a few years to fight. After graduating, I could say: here it is - I became a singer! But I was not his songs, repertoire. Then it was necessary that the audience I was touched and loved, and this is the next step to dreams. So only now I could say that it has come true. But I would not say: if so, it may all collapse and retired.
- Now you have a big stage and their songs, and their viewers - what do you want more?
- (Laughs.) I want them even more! This process is endless. But by and large I just want to become better - to grow every day and in all positions. And I do this a lot - and in the creative and intellectual sense.
- Grow to what limits?
- I understand that spiritual perfection to me is not achieved, because for that you have to live a very different life. Because our profession is associated with ambition, vanity. I'm in a difficult moment of life was the desire to enter a monastery, but still I was not able to do it. My favorite job is feeding not only me but my parents, my family, my grandmother. I need the children to put on their feet. I understand why I do it.
More, all the better... Perfectionism does not prevent you to live?
- I would like to stop picking on yourself. It's the only thing that I by and large concerned. But this position is difficult to soar to the heavens, you always see that there is room to grow. And if I'm satisfied with myself, I get much more fun than compliments from.
"What will happen if you will not be able to put a five?
- (Thinks.) It seems to me that nothing bad will happen, I just know we have to work even more. The main "subject" on which I would like to get the five, is motherhood. But the evaluation will be clear only when the children grow up. They learn well, but not perfectly, even though we easily could! Really don't want them at some moment regretted that he had not done what he could. While I was there and not suggested. I want them to find themselves, and to prevent their choice will not. Because in his time
and my choice might seem strange: the girl in his pocket a gold medal, is thrown into an adventure and coming from a small town in Moscow, without ties, without money. But my parents supported me.
- Something you would change in your childhood?
"No, I had a great childhood. Is that the beginning would work out early, it would have saved me from complexes in physical education classes - they were for me a real torture!
- Today is your form of doubts in anybody does not cause. In connection with your access to European audiences in the press even the captions in the style of "Meet the new Madonna! ".
- (She sighs.) Oh, Lord... In the first interview that I gave in the West, a journalist asked me: what do you think of Madonna? I say it's not my favorite artist, we are antipodes. And suddenly out of such a title. They made me uncomfortable, because the comparison is completely unjustified. To gain popularity at this price, as Louise Ciccone - crucifixion on the cross, is not mine. It is important for me to do something then not be ashamed to children.
- What would you like to be different from other people?
- (Big pause.) Each person is an individual. It seems to me that the most valuable thing is to be yourself. So you will be different from others.
In the book you write that, only parting with the old man, you are back to itself. It turns out that ten years you were not?
- Definitely. My whole life was focused on survival. I've adapted to the circumstances and behaved not as peculiar to me. Even children I could not bring up the way they thought fit. This man tried to fill all the space that separated me and the children too: arriving with the tour, I had to sit next to him ("my leg! "and watch TV. And the kids did the babysitter. But the most unbearable moments were when he was cruel to the children.
- Today in the same situation you would have behaved differently?
- I know that will never tolerate such an attitude. But now in my life already everything is different. Then too dependent. And legal - because I was bred numerous contracts, and psychological. I did not give the Church permission to divorce, the father said: this is your cross, the man without thee shall perish. With this in mind I very long lived... And then I was struck by the sudden thought that I save you, my spiritual strength and humility, it is not enough. Today I surprised myself: I don't understand how I am with your temperament, with his opinion on each occasion I could live like that? But when you're inside a situation, every day there are new circumstances, challenges, new makeup... Short dashes - forward-forward - and gone these ten years. But I am convinced that these years have helped me to grow as a person.
- What is stronger just keep you in the marriage fear to interrupt his career, the desire to keep, no matter what, seven?
- To keep the family together, of course. About a career I never thought of! I was ready to leave the profession because of conflicts with her husband came to working the soil. I started to dread any Studio work, filming and even performances. What career? I just wanted to survive, wanted rejoiced my children to sighed quietly my parents. I wanted to have a normal family. And I have a feeling that I did everything correctly. I was raised that marriage is serious. And was sure that now I'm getting married forever, and if I went at the very beginning of life together, perhaps I would be tortured by remorse that I did everything I could.
- In your happy family you were an only child. And in the one unhappy, decided to get three...
"I didn't decide anything! All the children were born unscheduled. First husband had convinced me that the children we can't be that he has a problem. It was Anna. The theme came when I breastfed. I would never have been able to decide to terminate a pregnancy and still went to have an abortion. And the ultrasound I was told: "now, Behold, the heart is beating." (She have tears in her eyes.) Of course, I turned around and went home. 1994 was the worst: I have two small children, and the behavior of the husband getting worse every day. And then I came to Church. The Church gave me recharge serious. And I began to live, biting her lip, and to suffer, to endure. Then was born Senya...
- You once explained to the children what was happening in the house?
"I thought: why? If a person is insane, it's so obvious! Here we are at home, everything is fine, and then dad goes. All in horror shrink, immediately artificial smiles on their faces. Tears, if anyone were instantly dry. The subject, when I was a child, in the second wiping his face with his hand and ran up to me and said: "Tears are not visible? " The tension was terrible - just a dark cloud crept into the house. And when he left, everyone - including his mother - noisy and relief exhaled, "Well, we begin to live? "
- After parting with Alexander, you turned to psychotherapy?
- Yes, we went to the sessions to the therapist for the whole family. The injured child was the Subject. He had much to endure, the father was very cruel to him. But we were still able to warm it with his love. He is very attached to her grandmother, grandpa (my parents), great-grandmother. And I hope that the pain and the hatred of him is gone.
And from your soul?
- I felt good as soon as I returned to my parents in Atkarsk. I was without money, without work, the future is uncertain, but her husband was not around and it was happiness. When we went to live with Joseph (Prigozhin. - Approx. as amended), I could not get rid of the constant comparisons: "But that would have on this phrase... " Now I just let go. I can laugh when I remember with our nanny, a witness of those events, the absurdity of everything that happened.
What most pleases you in your life today?
"I think Joseph is the man with whom I want to meet old age. It can easily laugh at themselves and allow others to do it. And I like it a lot. We have no idyll: he is a very emotional person, I, too, come in and splashes, and quarrels, but the main thing is love and no fear. Never and to anybody. My children don't go numb when they are criticized. All very easy, of course. And no one has an exaggerated sense of self-worth.
Personal business
1968 April 17 in Atkarsk, Saratov region in the family of teachers-musicians Yuri and Galina Perfilova was born the only daughter of Alla.
1985 Alla goes to the Academy of music. Gnesin Academy of music, majoring in vocal performance. At the same time became the soloist of the ensemble "Impulse" Saratov some of the Philharmonic.
1987 Participates in the competition of young performers in Jurmala. Married to musician Leonid Yaroshevsky, the couple moved to Moscow.
1989 Alla met with producer Alexander Shulgin, takes the stage name of Valery records album, The Taiga Symphony and album of Russian songs "Stay with me".
1991 Winner of TV contest "Morning star".
1992 Won the international competition "Bratislava lyre".
1993 Finalizes divorce with Leonid Yaroshevsky, married Alexander Shulgin (later they will be married), officially changing the name of Alla to Valery. The birth of his daughter Anna.
1994 First solo concert in the concert hall "October" (St. Petersburg). The birth of the son of Artemia. The song "Airplane", the first hit Valerie.
1996 Album "Anna" brings her fame.
1998 Birth of the youngest son Arseny.
2002 Valery goes with children in Atkarsk, leaves the stage. Their marriage with her Manager debunked.
2003 Valery signed a contract with producer Iosif Prigozhin. After 1, 5-year interval takes the stage at the award ceremony Muz-TV".
8 October kicks off the album "land of love".
2004 married Joseph Prigogine. Premium music channel Muz-TV and MTV Russian Music Awards in the category "Best performer". Then four years in a row becomes Lau-reate prize "Golden gramophone".
2005 Awarded the title of honored artist of the Russian Federation.
2006 Published an autobiographical book the singer's "life, tears and love".
2008 Release of the album Out of Control ("Control").
Source:
Psychologies
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